Lately, I have found myself overwhelmed. Having 3 kids, 2 being Aspie kids, jobs, house, mother...etc. My mind has been greatly preoccupied with everyday existence. Because of this, I have not been writing as often as I should. Writing always helps me sort out my thoughts. I started this blog to simply journal about being an Aspie Mom in a way that might help other Aspie moms know they are not alone....
I hope that I have helped some....
Yet, as the pendulum of life continues to swing, I have been in a period of questioning, insecurity, doubt.
"Is what I do for my Aspie sons REALLY doing any good?"
"What else can I do?"
"Am I doing more harm than good?"
Demons like these creep into my thoughts as I tire from a long day.
"How will I ever know if I am HELPING my sons....AT ALL?"
Well, finally....a light.
Our oldest son has truly been on a long journey. It started at a young age with a teacher that could not understand his differences and marked him as a "bad kid."
He went forth from that to being mocked and teased by the other boys in his class...throughout school. Balls being thrown at him, lies being told about him, anything and everything to play him & cause a meltdown....
He has peacefully battled against an unseen enemy....
Tantrums, meltdowns, stress, late work, lost work, lost time, lost dreams....
These were the earmarks of his existence.
Yet, today, I checked his grades....
1-C
1-B
6-A's
WHAT????
And a teacher even e-mailed me to let me know....not only did he turn in his homework....but he turned it in early....and his was the highest score of all of her classes on the last chapter test......
"THANKS! I NEEDED THAT!!!"
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